As published in Eden Magazine May 1, 2017
I’m alone . . . but not lonely, well maybe a little lonely. I’m traveling, on tour with my business for six months through areas of the country where I know no one, and my mother passed away one month into this trip. It is a scenario that once would have devastated me with loneliness. Now, it is manageable; I make friends much more easily and I have friends in other places I can talk to, and I have work I love that keeps me busy and connected.
Loneliness was an unwelcome companion most of my life. My earliest memories are of not feeling a part of the group, always the outsider. This got worse as I got older. The typically difficult teenage years were excruciating, my early twenties a wasteland. I had virtually no friends, weighed 200 pounds, was wildly bulimic and severely depressed. Not surprisingly I didn’t go on a date until I was 25 years old. Eventually I married that man, which helped but did not solve the problem; I was still lonely.
In my 30’s I found homeopathy (energy medicine) and later whole body vibration (WBV), a revolutionary mind, body and spirit therapy, and in subtle and dramatic ways my life began to change. Things I had struggled to achieve all my life (and failed using numerous other approaches) suddenly began to just happen. I was thrilled beyond measure. I was like Sally Field receiving the Oscar, “You like me!”
That was the first year. Since then I have been on such a dizzying arc of change that it is almost inconceivable . . . busy becoming the person I was meant to be, a bright and shining joyful light no longer hidden under an obliterating blanket of negative energy.
The transformation began with homeopathy, a form of energy medicine with a 200-year history of success worldwide. Once, homeopathy was so popular in the US that there were hundreds of homeopathic medical schools and thousands of homeopathic pharmacies. It was crushed in this country, though, by the exploding western pharmaceutical/medical industry of the early 1900’s with its seductive drugs and technology. But drugs and surgery are illusionary (though sometimes necessary in emergencies) — they do not change your energy, the guiding force of your body, mind, and life.
Homeopathy works through resonating energy wavelengths to amplify your energy and ability to heal. This can lead to huge changes in your physical body — like when a singer hits a note (sound waves) and a glass shatters. Our thoughts and feelings have energy, as can be seen with a magnetic resonance image (MRI) of our brain. When the correct resonating homeopathic remedy is given, one that truly resonates with a person, it can “shatter” a negative thought pattern, leading to deep healing on all levels: the body, mind, and soul.
Whole body vibration (WBV) is a booming body, mind, and spirit therapy that raises serotonin, almost immediately giving you a quick anti-depressant effect. Serotonin is the neurotransmitter in our brains that western anti-depressant drugs target. High levels of serotonin are linked with a calm, happy mood, self-confidence, and motivation, all of which is, of course, very helpful for your social life.
However, to achieve good long-lasting relationships, perhaps especially in the intensity of a romantic relationship, one needs to let go of negative thoughts and beliefs, i.e. change your energy — because we attract that which we radiate — this is The Law of Attraction. You must come to love yourself with the greatest of unconditional love, like a mother loves her adored child. Most especially you must love that soft tender part inside of you that is hurting and angry, like that archetypal mother would love her injured child. Love that soft tender part because that child needs and deserves love, and because it is true that you can only love another as much as you can love yourself.
WBV was originally developed for Olympic athletes in Russia some 50 years ago, and it is most famous as a workout, but it is a powerful energy therapy as well. We are all liquid crystals, in the sense that we are highly organized molecular structures. And all crystals have a physical property called piezoelectricity, which is the ability to turn mechanical vibration into electromagnetic energy. So, when you stand on a vibrating plate your body will automatically turn the vibration into the exact electromagnetic energy you need to balance your energy meridians and spin your chakras.
My experience with WBV over the last fifteen years, has been that WBV speeds up the rate of energy change. It seems to be an energy detoxification method, helping to bring buried negative energy to the surface where it can then be let go with a homeopathic remedy. Negative energy (beliefs and thoughts) arises from trauma, whether it is physical, psychological, emotional, or sexual, or even from a previous generation or life. Imbedded deep in our subconscious, these negative thoughts and beliefs often get stuck, and as new ones come along from new traumas, they pile up, like the layers of an onion.
You can let go of the top layer with the help of homeopathy, but it is likely that there will be more than one layer of negative energy accumulated over your lifetime (s). Normally it can take quite a while for another layer to rise to the surface. Classical homeopathy addresses each layer as it arises with a single remedy to cover the whole mind-body-emotional state for that layer of negative energy. Some homeopaths feel that if the correct remedy for a chronic condition has been chosen, you should only need one deep-acting “constitutional” homeopathic remedy in your lifetime.
In my case, as I continued with both the WBV and the homeopathy I saw increasingly rapid change. I ended up needing many different homeopathic remedies, and at an increasing rate. One could think that perhaps I needed more remedies because the WBV was hurting me somehow, but along with my physical symptoms improving I also saw my mental health and life circumstances improving. This told me that I was on the right track, despite the fact that I was breaking the rules of classical homeopathy.
I have now been at this a long time — it seems I had an Eiffel Tower sized onion of negative energy layers — but it also reflects the enormous arc of change I have experienced. I am now vastly more accepting and loving of myself, which means I am much more able to take care of myself in all the ways I need to in order to have a good life. And that feeling of comfort and love I have for myself extends outward, radiating, and attracting other people. Mostly I am no longer lonely, whether alone or not.